Emotional Eating.

I have fallen off the wagon. I ate and ate chicken korma and rice throughout the weekend and cupcakes. I am good for five working days in the week but if I am sitting at home or going out I end up eating unhealthy stuff. Also, I had a huge fight and the only thing I could fall back on was food.. Talking helped a bit and so did exercise. But it wasn't enough. I needed the comfort of food. Is there anyway or anything you guys to do stop?

Please help! :)

Back to Basics

I've been yo-yoing with my diet. Good for a day - bad for two days, good for half a day, bad for yadayada..

However, I'ts been 4 days of being good now - feels great! Lets not lose the focus girls.

I know we talked about healthy lifestyle but I'm realising I am very goal oriented. So, I have a goal of losing 5 kgs in 3 months and I have an end date of 18th Sep.

I'm hoping this will help me stay on the straight and curvy!

Cravings

I can't I can't I can't stop thinking of food today. Waiiilll!!! I had a healthy breakfast of eggs and healthy lunch of salad and yogurt but now all that is running in my head is FOOD! FOOD!! FOOD!!!

Heeelllpppppp aaaayyyyyaaaahhhhhhh.... *Creeps towards food bar*

Inner Beast

Hello ladies!

I understand that this post might seem a little out of place and context but bear with me while I explain myself..

What is the biggest tool in our hands at all times? huh? huh? Well the correct answer is introspection. And so I used that tool for the past few days. Do you know what happened?

Yes I did find my epiphany!

You see I've often wondered why exactly I can stick to healthy eating for a month but then totally slide after that whereas supermodels eat healthy all the bloody time! I've also wondered why when I love swimming I go regularly for about three months and then again slide for the rest of the year whereas people like my dad can keep at it every alternate day for 10 years consistently! This has been an underlying trend in everything I have ever attempted to do. Blogging...petered away when we all stopped, art - stuck to it for a month, piano - 6 months and the list goes on! :(

The answer is not something superficial such as motivation or interest or just needing the right information because I always had all of that. Deeper thought made me realise my true problem is that I am inherently lazy. I am. Harsh reality but I am. I don't do the dishes at night at times coz I'm too lazy and guess what there's nobody to tell me to toe the line. I don't do laundry for extended periods of time and sometimes I put off cleaning up. I am purely and simply lazy. And this trickles into every sphere of my life. Luckily I've found a profession that leads me to a new and exciting project every 3 months and I manage to stay on top of it. But if I didn't have that I'd never get to the end of anythng that took real effort, discipline and perseverance.

Each of our situations and real root problems is different. But I've identified mine and it is laziness. I've already started attacking this beast since the weekend like getting up to do 'it' no matter what like be it anything in any sphere. No more putting it off. And I think taming this beast will help me lead that healthy life I want to lead.

So what is your inner beast?

Gym Class Zeros to Gym Class Heroes

     After S wrote the post asking about the Dos and Don'ts I realised I had the same problem when I first joined a gym. I did not like the trainer and avoided him like the plague. But when I moved to Mumbai, the gym had two fun trainers who pushed me to do more but at least did not force upon me things I didn't like. For example, they coaxed me to run even when I couldn't but did not push me to do sit up with weights because my back hurt and did not like it.
     But what they did teach me and this could help gym beginners or just work-out beginners as it did for me.
     -- You have to mix cardio and weights - weights like any misconception doesn't make you look fat after you stopped. You will look and become fat if you stop exercising. Period. But in case you just don't want to take a chance with weights then with cardio you need to remember that the body needs at least 24 hours to repair itself. So if you do cardio in the afternoon like I do, going next day morning might feel alright but the body needs more time to heal.
     -- Which brings me to the second point - keep a schedule. Do it daily at 6pm in the evening or 7am in the morning. Once you fix a timing other committments can be worked around it.
     -- With the exercise days I alternated them a couple of months back. I used to go Monday, Tuesday take a break of Wednesday and do Thursday and Friday but most often than not I hated doing anything on Mondays let alone workout! So, now I do four continuous days of cardio (zumba uses light weights - helps in tightening those arm muscles that hang and wobble :-))
     -- Get a couple of days of yoga into the schedule if you can. It gives upper body strength and makes you more flexible. I thought it would be boring but once I entered the class and started it I can honestly say I remembered only how happy I was doing the Shavasana at the end of the session.
     -- Have a routine and push yourself harder. I can give others excuses but I cannot fool myself into believing that I am doing the right thing.
     -- And golden rule after cardio - an ABSOLUTE MUST - stretch stretch stretch!
    
This is what I am going to try doing. Picked it up from this website. Like the website suggests, go for the distance or go for the timing. I am hoping to go for the timing.


Have fun :) Update progress

Week	Workout 1	Workout 2	Workout 3
1	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes.
2	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.	Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes.
3	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then do two repetitions of the following: Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds) Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes) Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)
4	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 2-1/2 minutes) Jog 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Walk 1/8 mile (or 90 seconds) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)
5	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes) Walk 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog two miles (or 20 minutes) with no walking.
6	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 3/4 mile (or 8 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1/2 mile (or 5 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then: Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes) Walk 1/4 mile (or 3 minutes) Jog 1 mile (or 10 minutes)	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2-1/4 miles (or 22 minutes) with no walking.
7	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.5 miles (or 25 minutes).
8	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 2.75 miles (or 28 minutes).
9	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).	Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).	The final workout! Congratulations! Brisk five-minute warmup walk, then jog 3 miles (or 30 minutes).

My First Step..

JOINED THE GYM.

I never once thought i will be stepping on the doors of a place filled with the big machines which will make me sweat and loose weight ..

But recently with all the motivation in air i wanted to do somethin and....taaddaa .... i joined a gym.... 

Since this is my first time.. need help on Do's and Dont's.

PS: jus paid the membership ;) 

Good News! :)

Checked my weight after about two weeks of dieting--or contained eating--if there's a term.

I was 47.7. Now I am 45!!! So happy :). Just wanted to share this. 

I want to eat something to celebrate now :). 

Happiness.....!!!!!!

When the Pizza Passed Away...

It died a silent death. 

D walked towards my small table on the terrace, and tapped my puny shoulder. Her plate smelled of heaven. Of all the temptations that life on earth is peppered with: A dominos barbeque chicken, cheese burst pizza. I love.

She pulled that vulnerable chair next to mine and plonked herself and politely held out my-ex-staple-diet, "Want some?" I gave it one hard look, a look its shiny, oreganoey, chickeny self, deserved. Some? I want every single inch. Never in my life have I felt so depraved.

I looked away, while the other half of my body revolted...a small mutiny later, I refused with a heavy heart..and a heavier belly.  And I sat there watching her slowly soak in its delectable beauty. 

This is so hard. But I just don't want to hate myself in a couple of hours. Small pleasure, HUGE pain.

So I let it die a not-so-natural-death.. RIP..You will be terribly missed...till I let myself conquer the desire to break-free. And I reach a place where food makes me happy, not guilty.

  

Dedicated to Pavithra and Anu...

PS: This is so hard and I am salivating..But say no now, so that you can give yourself a treat..a well deserved one. 

Sloth

I need a motivational lecture. This has been a weekend of sloth. It satrted at 5 pm on Friday and has continued into Monday morning.

I do not want to list the upmteen number of junk foods I've consumed in the past 72 hours as I do not want to take you down with me.

But please somebody give me some direction and pull me back on track! This weight loss attempt isn't pointless right? Right?

the Gas system

Is it me or is there more gas in your tummy after eating salads?

My office has been relatively quiet as most of our reporters are working from home. London transport authorities sufficiently scared the bejeesus out of most of the Londoners saying that public transport systems would be packed with tourists and Olympic goers. (I have had the best commute since I joined Platts, Canary Wharf last year - getting a seat to sit in peak morning hours was a dream)

My point being, my tummy whines with gas and EVERYONE till Timbaktoo can hear it and it aint pretty!

It shuts up even the profanity spewing employee of the month at my office! Waaaiiil! I knew there was a downside to eating veggies. Any solution?

Help.

I Have Sinned...

Boss took us out for lunch to Rajdhani in UB City. Boss is veg. Rajdhani serves only veg food. I ate. Almost everything that was on the plate. Even the sweet dish.

But I looked away when the second serving came along. Only if the waiter would let me be. He put some Khichdi with a big spoon of Ghee. And the plate lit up like a sunny day. 

I ate it all up. I would have loved for the waiter to do sales for my company, he was so persistent. Came running to my  guilty empty plate and threw a small helping of rice. Sweet kadi had to leave its residence.

Now I am feeling bloated. My stomach is full of veg calories.

And I wish my boss was a meat-eating freak...not a sober herbivore...I so wish.

But today, I have sinned.

Star!

OK I know this is absolutely silly. I shouldn/t be so excited and thrilled over literally a non-achievement. But you don't understand...I'm a foodie. I live to eat. I dream about food all day and I've been this way as far back as I could remember.

I also suffer from chronic cravings. I mean at times immediately after lunch am hungry and starving for some yummy sweetness or some tangy evil. Sigh.

But yesterday was the first day since I started on this crusade to be healthy that I went through a whole 24 hours without eating any sort of unhealthy junk. Nada. Zilch. None at all. Mind you I was hungry all day but I ignored my urge for the salty and sugary and went for salads, soups, cous cous and avacado and somehow made it through the day without over-eating and without junking.

I feel like a star. Really...like I said its silly but you don't know the inner battle I face!

Anyway I was wondering if we should have an awarding system here? Stars, badges and so on and so forth! Our own little victory club? ;-)

Also...I love you girls for being here and fighting this battle with me.

All for one and none for fat!  Thank you! :D